“And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.”
Happy New Year! I can’t believe another year has come and gone. As I grow older the years go quicker! There were the usual joys, sorrows, gains, losses and ups and downs in 2018 and life lessons as well. Waking up today, the first day of 2019 with my daughter and dog snuggled up beside me, I felt an overwhelming gratitude for God’s great gift of life. Whether I’m going experiencing the highs or the lows, I’m grateful. I also reflected on how I’m using my life to glorify God. If I’m being honest, I experienced a lot of disappointment in 2018. I wasn’t disappointed by God, but by me. I have this aching feeling that I’m not living on purpose, that I’m holding myself back, and not jumping fully into God’s plan for my life. My unfinished list would make your head spin, so I’ll spare you!
This morning after reading scripture, I sat with God, just me and Him and asked Him to speak to my heart. I desperately needed the Lord to reveal a word, to me that would give me insight into how I needed to change my heart, transform my mind, and motivate me to not just make a fly by night resolution, but a life altering change. It’s amazing what God will reveal when you’re still and present.
The word God revealed to me was…Finish. I had to laugh because boy does my creator know His creation! Here’s the thing, I’m a pretty good starter, I think I have some good ideas, and when it comes to my daughter I finish things, but somewhere in the middle of a pursuit, I get stuck. I don’t finish. It drives me nuts, it makes me sad and disappointed and it keeps me in a rut. Not finishing actually makes me not like myself very much. Why? Because I know that I’m not in alignment with God’s will. It’s as though I’m running a steady race and then BOOM! I hit a wall. Instead of finding a way around it, I just kind of sit there, staring up and too paralyzed to move.
It reminds me of Galatians 5:7, “You were running a good race. Who cut in on you to keep you from obeying the truth?” Instead of believing the truth, that I can accomplish all things through Christ, and lean on Him, I get wrapped up into my own insecurities and it robs me from completing the race! Not only did God give me a word this morning, He went deeper with a prescription! In my heart He revealed to exactly how to finish.
F- Faith: My faith has to lie in God and not myself. I have a little problem called stubborn self-reliance, that keeps me back from the grace of faith.
I- Intentional: I have to be deliberate about finishing and not just starting. Discipline, preparation and action have a played a big role for my lack of finishing.
N- Now: The time is not in the next couple days, or month, or later, it is now. Too often I plan for the future without taking the steps in the now. Two years later I’m talking about what I plan to do instead of just doing it!
I-Inspiration: Surrounding and immersing myself in what inspires me is key. I need to refine my vision and be inspired by it every day. Keeping inspiration in front of my eyes, in my heart will help me to manifest it in my life. Also, finding inspiration through reading God’s word and being inspired by His truths and not the lies the enemy wants me to believe about myself and my gifts.
S-Self Control: God made it clear that discipline, wise choices, and the willingness to stop doing what I know produces the same results will keep me from hitting that wall and give me the endurance to finish. My procrastination is a direct result of my lack of self-control.
H-Hope: God revealed to me that I need to renew my hope. Even in the failures, I have to remember my testimony, my cloud of witnesses and the truth that is hope that lies in Jesus Christ my Savior.
Will finishing be easy? No, after all habits, are hard to break, but I do know that God didn’t reveal this to me for me to fail. He has already equipped me for victory, for purpose and to finish what I start. I pray that you have a wonderful 2019 overflowing with blessings, gratitude and a renewed sense of purpose!