Lately I’ve been going through somewhat of a difficult season in my life. I’ve been feeling attacked on many fronts, but my spirit has taken a beaten. Without going into too much personal detail I will say that I’ve felt distant from my church, I’ve questioned friendships, and even my own spiritual disciplines have been lacking. The enemy loves to distract us, plant seeds of doubt and make us question our very own spiritual foundation and relationship with Christ and our brothers and sisters. He’s been busy with me and to be honest he’s been having a good old time. Last night I asked God to give me peace and to guide my footsteps. I feel like a big old vacuum has just sucked the joy sucked away from my heart and it has left me completely exhausted, drained, and sad.
Well, when God speaks to you, boy does he speak to you. Last night I had a dream that I was in church and all the seats were taken. Even my daughter was sitting down, but there were no empty seats for me. I was left standing and just looking around. Finally, I thought I’ll just leave. I wasn’t going to take my daughter away from her seat, I planned on waiting for her (which is so significant because my daughter loves church) I was turning to walk away and my minister in a loud voice said, “Don’t you dare to quit church.” WOW! I knew exactly what God was saying to me! God spoke directly to me on a prayer that my heart was so conflicted about that only God could guide me on and no one else. In my spirit I know that God isn’t only talking about the physical church but my relationship with Him. In my heart I have no doubt he is telling to me to stay grounded, to keep strong in my faith, and not to give up and let enemy get a foothold.
I hope in sharing this with you that it is a reminder that God does speak to us. Be still and wait… then my sweet sisters listen to him and find rest in his answers. God is awesome and this morning I was reminded that he is right next to me in all his love and grace in abundance.